March

During these few days, the weather is so bad in USA and southern Ontario of Canada, freezing rain and heavy snowfall. Here is the capital of Canada, ice pellets started overnight and then continued the morning (today is Friday, 2nd of March), it changed to snowfall in the mid-day, we expected more than 20cm of snow at the end. There were no school buses running, kids had no school. My son, Benny could sleep until 9:30am to get up; he watched the TV and hanged with the computer all day. I didn't go to my computer class in the afternoon, just wrote a few emails to friends and read something as usual.

March is a sad month for me because it is the memorial anniversary for my daughter; she passed away on March 16, 2002 with the horrible genetic disease, MELAS, at the age of 14 years and 8 months old. This year should be the fifth year. My daughter started getting sick with this MELAS in 1997 when she was ten years old, then, in four years, she was in and out the children hospital so often. At last, she fell in coma, it was November in 2001. I remember, it was the most miserable winter in my life. I went to the hospital to be with her everyday, looked at her helpless, there were no words to describe this emotional feeling. My daughter's life was a long story, I will tell some-by-some in this blog later the days.

Now, I am still with my daughter everyday. Since she was gone, we re-arranged her bedroom to be my study room, we didn't bury her in the cemetery, she was cremated, we keep her urn at one corner in her "bedroom"----my study room now, favor toys surround her (urn). Everyday, I sit in front of my computer to read online and write, my daughter seems sitting besides me, when I turn around, I must see her smiling, (her photo is on the urn).